Suicide Threats

I’ve been living with Stephanie’s suicide threats for 14 or 15 years. My body goes into shock for long periods of time.  That much cortisol can’t be good for you. Yesterday she left work to admit herself to the hospital but but didn’t go because she didn’t have a ride. That make sense?  Well I guess she’s obviously not thinking straight. Anyway I went back into cortisol shock and decided to call my doc.  I told the nurse what was going on and she said she would talk to a nurse and call me back. A nurse called me back almost immediately and told me I needed to back off emotionally and stick with my relationships with other kids, grandkids. There’s really nothing I can do. Just step away from it.  She gave me permission to just step away.  Which was better than a prescription. Until today. I’m stressed again. Wish I could talk to her every day.   Wish I could just step away.